I haven’t truly written a story since last year. Things in my life can be adventurous and challenging at the same time. Some days I am happy… others I wear a mask. Sometimes I cry for no reason… other times my heart is broken, but the tears won’t fall. It’s becoming more and more difficult for me to trust people by the second. I don’t have many true friends, but I love to connect with the world around me. Meeting new people and discovering their passions makes all of the difference in the world.
You learn that we all truly are connected, in this circle called life. It’s amazing how I connect with people from across the globe and they embrace me. Others’ stories whether happy or sad have begun to effect me. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m getting older and becoming soft or because more and more I’m starting to realize just how big my heart really is. I dream about changing the world. I also, realize that there are things that I need to change about myself. For the most part I am content, just not 100% comfortable.
People always ask me who I am and whether or not I’m famous. My response: I’m just a Southern gal from New Orleans whose dreams are larger than life. I used to sit back and wonder what my purpose in life was, but it is now as clear as day. When I was asked many year ago… “What do you want to do in life?” my response: I want to impact hundreds, thousands, and then millions. For impression is momentary. Impact lasts 10 million life times. If I can learn at least one new thing a day and make a difference in someone’s life… I am living.
As for relationships… Ahhhhh where do I begin? Currently, I am single.
There is someone that I still love. There is someone that I will always love. There is someone that I will never be granted the opportunity to love. There is someone that I do not want to experience life or love without. There is someone that I wish to love. There is someone that doesn’t deserve my love. There is someone longing for my love. There is someone that toyed with my love. There is someone that doesn’t recognize that all I need is unconditional love. Unfortunately, that someone, is not the same person.— @fantasy_5
See… I don’t have much luck when it comes to relationships. I have pretty much excepted the fact that there is a possibility that I might die old, rich, and single. I want to get married. I want to expand my family. I want to fall head over hills in love, but I’m afraid. I do not want to get hurt again… worse pain in the world. He once said that I should give love a chance. Opening up my heart also opens up the possibility to get hurt.
I said that I don’t welcome heartache. He said that it’s a chance that you’d have to be willing to take. I said that if I have to run for the rest of my days then that’s what I’ll do. Most people are for self and only have their own best interest at heart. The truth is all men cheat. At the right time, in any given place, at the right moment, and for many different reasons. I don’t welcome those types of people in my life; because I know what I bring to the table so I’m not afraid to eat alone.
Will I ever find love again? Will I ever start trusting people again? Will I ever become a legend? How many lives will I truly touch before I expire? We shall see!
I awaken every morning and I talk to God. I fight the good fight. I keep the faith and I know that everything will be okay. I think that I’m boring because all I do is grind. (Lol) There you go! This is a little piece of my life. Stay tuned… it gets better. 😉